You're right. It shouldn't. I DO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU FEEL! It's EXACTLY how everyone else in my life feels.
I'm a broken toy. Play with me, by all means, but never expect anything more than a good smile from me. I can't give more than that.
I'm a good person
But I'm a terrible friend and lover.
I will never be able to give you all the attention that you require.
I'm too selfish to actually love.
For the longest time, I've only had to care for myself. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO CARE FOR OTHER PEOPLE.
I feel as though I don't need other people. They all come and go. They're all so very replaceable.
But I don't want to replace you. Please stay with me. Please.
As pathetic and irresponsible as I am, I've met my match with you. You're everything that I want to be. You're the brilliant proof that GOD CARES FOR ME! PLEASE!
I don't know how to let you know these things as my words seem to twist and lie when actually conversing.
I can't live without you.
Life with you is worth so much more than the life that I had prior to you.
I can't live without you.
I can't.
I!
I have NEVER USED YOU! I have never intentionally used you.
I'm sorry that my mind wanders away from you, but I can't tell you how steady and focused on you my heart is.
I'm not perfect.
I'm not worthy.
I've reached my best with you, but I know that you haven't reached your best with me.
I don't sacrifice because...
I don't know.
I don't know.
It is inevitable that you will leave me.
